Collide

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find you and I collide

I was playing a mindless game of SongPop on Facebook earlier and this song came up in Love Songs.  I guessed it in 1.3 seconds.  I love the song Collide by Howie Day.  I was looking at the date of the song and it said 2003.  I can't believe the song is 10 years old.  That just doesn't seem like it's right.  Every time I hear the song, it feels like the first time I've heard it and I immediately find myself singing along with it, top of my lungs.  I think it is just one of those songs for me that will be in the soundtrack of my life. 

Now, I know -- as far as songs go, there are better songs.  There are more meaningful songs.  But this song... it digs into my soul.

If you really listen to it... if you read the lyrics... to me, it sounds like the song is about two people who have a push-pull relationship.  Love-hate.  Whatever you want to call it.  They seem like opposites yet they keep coming back together.  That one short song summarizes just about every romantic relationship I've ever had (sans happy ending.)  Fear, interest, hope, dismay, push, pull, love, hate.  It's all there.  A romance novel set to music.  With a semi-happy ending.  The other party finally realizes what the first party knew all along.  They were meant to come together.  To collide.  My favorite part of the song, though, is the opening verse.

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I often wake up on the weekend, alone, all snuggly in bed and wonder what it would be like to roll over and see the sunlight reflect off of the face or hair or shoulder of someone lying beside me.  Someone other than Abby. Someone who is the love of my life and with whom I don't mind being tangled - physically and emotionally.  Someone with whom I collide.

Maybe this year.  No.  Definitely this year.

This is not going to be a blog about loving and losing.  I was just listening to this song and thought, "Man, I want to tell people why I like this song" and so I wrote a blog.  If I ever get married, this song will be at my wedding.